COVID-19 diary – week 20

Keeping an archive of my thoughts, rants, questions, and other drivel from my mind during the COVID-19 crisis.

It’s been a rough week. Current job is winding down, and the transition tasks are ramping up as the contract comes to an end. Just so much to do … so little time.

We lost our air conditioner Tuesday night. The repair guy said it needs a new fan motor in the outside unit. He tried to get it limping along to help us out, but it died several hours after he left. The only thing saving us is a portable AC unit one of my neighbors let us borrow. No idea when a fan motor will come at this point. Home warranty company has been radio silent and their customer service line was actually offline on Friday. Scary.

I’m drained. Emotionally, physically, and mentally. I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a gymnasium with 50 people throwing dodge balls at me. But whenever I dodge out of the way of one ball, I get hit with three others. There’s just SO much going on right now, I’m struggling to keep up.

The upside is that I have a job. I have a house. I have a wonderful family. I have adorable dogs. The things I have to complain about are temporary. They’ll pass. I just have to capture what I can, work on what I can, and understand that this too shall pass. Everything is temporary.

I’ve been doing my best to limit my Facebook time again this week. I slipped back into checking frequently the past couple weeks. It aggravates me almost every time I log in … I end up closing the window shortly after I open it. It’s such a habit they’ve built … crazy. I’m doing my best to break that habit. I’m a work in progress.

The upside to less Facebook time is not having to be reminded of the idiots in this country that refuse to do what’s best for all. I understand why. The idea of America is such a “self-built model” that people in this country don’t like being told what to do. We’re VERY open to manipulation and suggestion, but straight-out telling us to wear a mask and a certain portion of this country will openly defy that just because “you don’t tell ME what to do!” Idiots. Every single damn person who tries to pretend life is normal right now is an idiot. I don’t even care who I offend right now. I’m allowed to believe they’re idiots for putting everybody else at risk and dragging this bullshit on. Idiots.

One highlight of my week was getting another fountain pen. I felt silly buying another one. But my wonderful wife reminded me that if it brings me joy, then it’s a small price to pay for something I enjoy.

Another highlight was going book shopping with the wife. We reserved a time slot at a local independent book store (they limit the number of people in the store). However, there wasn’t anybody else in the store during our time slot, so we had the whole store to ourselves! I found four books to add to my new (mostly bare) bookshelves.

Before I sign off, I’d like to apologize to anybody I’ve snapped at, thrown extra snark at, or just been a genuine asshole to (but not you anti-mask idiots). I’ve been stressed and grumpy this week and I’m trying not to take it out on anybody … it’s not anybody’s fault shit is the way it is (except you anti-mask idiots … I DO blame you). To everybody else (especially my wonderful wife), I’m sorry for my behavior.

OK, that’s enough. Don’t be an idiot, wear your mask. Wash your hands. Keep your social distance. Stay safe. And don’t pretend things are normal!

One comment

  1. Wish I had something to say or do that would help, but I know you’ll get through this tough time and be back to abnormal soon. We love you very much.

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